Stop Billing


I seriously don’t understand what does that mean. Billing… and Me. I’m not Stakeholder or DH at covansys to be doing or worried about Billing.

Well, I feel this decision was taken because I refused to come to office on Weekend :-) owing to tear in ligament. So far I have been coming on weekdays inspite of accident, but the moment I refuse to come, there is backlash like this. BTW, I havn’t been doing anything for this project since last two and half weeks. This mail is just gonna make me feel down. they wanna convey to me “They can live without me”, which I don’t hink is impossible. But this kind of treatment is some what dishearteneing, specially by my PM, who is not a typical manager. He is a manager with ears, eyes and heart. I don’t know who polluted him.

Just got a good liner from Priyanka on this situation.

Being a good person is like being a GoalKeeper,
No Matter how many goals u save,
People will remember only the one, that u missed !!!!!

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Update 30th July

I met my PM after release letter being handed over. I always wanted to talk with him on this topic as why a (good) person like him will do somethng like this to me . I’ll alwasy speak my mind. Well, he cleared that it was his own decision to put me out of project and gave me the reasons behind it. Not just convincing but true. I believe him very much. He remines me of my TL at Base Technologies. In factwhen I met hime for the first time, I was surprised (He looked very similar to Srikanth) and his (Pandian’s) behaviour was very good .

Old Memory Lane: Really reminds me of my those days of BaseTech. It was a very small team of 5 people. All of age 21-22. Full of crazy ideas to do in life. Inspite of dot com doom, we used to think of doing something great. Well, I still talk about some ideas that we had planned then. Only deterrent was the money to initiate.

Dream On.. err… Hop On

something very true in case of me so far in my professional life……

Dream On by Aerosmith (was also performed by them when I attended their show on June 2nd at Palace Grounds)
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Everytime that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face gettin clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dust to dawn
Isnt that the way
Everybodys got their dues in life to pay

I know what nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know its everybodys sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life is in books written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know its true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away
(x2)

Dream on, dream on
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream on, dream on
Dream until your dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on…

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter and sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

Why is He angry on me?

(writter on 26th June)

I just had a long argument (or fight) with Technology Director about my reaease by 13th of July. It went for long. As the last date is decided by Company, I was helpless, but more helpless I felt by his words “Do whatever you can”. Well, I had no options to actually accept this words. For so many dasy, he had been avoiding specifically talking on my release date and when he was left without reasons/excuses I got this treatment. I just feel taht I’m doomed to be life this. Working in good
technologies, with lots of enthuasism but leaving my all employer on bad not. some time I feel bad about working in a hard to find technology, casue when you want to seperate, you have harrowing time or bad time.

When I was with Base, just out of college with crazy ideas. I used to still think of some venture even after the doom time and office mates were very much interested in it. Taht was a good serious time pass. But I left basetech after a bad treatment by Indian boss. He was a typical Indian Boss. Managing his brother’s compnay in India and thinking people in Software are highly overpaid and to justify the salary must work for 25 hrs a day. and I would not sit in office more than 9 hours [:)]. So, one fine day I just thought to call it quit. I had come early the day I had decided to leave. My boss came at 11:30 and I left Base immediately after giving him an oral resignation and he said fine. Regret leaving. One big lession learnt, no matter what ever has happened, don’t be emotional and leave unless you have an offer in hand. Only time applied : Covansys.

Then finally did CDAC. Hope to do some magic with new compnay, Cybage. Though, cybage is my most hated employer I just love MicroStrategy. MicroStrategy was the best soul satisfying work I have had. But my PL found me too much to handle. I would ask him to go by rules and regulations of company. He had good setting with the PM. Consistent ouperformer for months but was treated shabbily during my notice period. A person who could not be matched even though I didn’t work for 5 motnhs for next appraisal at Cybage. Cybage did a lot of problem for my Full & Final settlement. My PL (Paramjeet Singh Sighu) went to extent of asking HR not to issue release letter, which I got pretty easily.

Enter Saama. Here work is already planned for next month. PM is technically quite well and I realized how good it can be when you have tech savvy PM, even though he had not done technical stuff for long. But, The ego of my TL took a big toll on me. My work was alwasys on scheduled but rest of team used to site last night on daily basis as there were a lot on under estimation, technical challenges, client was getting greedy and delay from client side. Wehn not having work, I would go on talking spree. He would make complaint to my PM, like this boy is browing google earth, maps, news for whole day. When my PM discussed this issue, I had just one reply, was there any problem with my work, quality of work and time line? but it became

a bit too much, when their delay started affecting me. They were handling SDK and ETL and I was doing MicroStrategy. I was not working with live data and wanted to check my work for long. My TL was technically super strong, he would kill you if you
notify him his even single mistakes. He somehow managed to sideline 9 year experience DBA for design for database during the initial phase. He had some mistakes and I knew that would impact MicroStrategy design. For quick reference that was Double counting error. Well, the issue had to come one day and he started blaming rest. even DBA. for his it was a sin if anyone left earlier than him. Well, I decided to leave him. Sadly the new project came for me when I had almost through the interview.

Now come Ivy, Offshoer development of PartyGaming. Loved everything about it. Flat hierarchy, good raise, good food, home just 2 km from home, 10 to 7 office, too much of new learning, lots of chichks (It had its call center), good experience MSTR people. Dream last just 50 days.

Covansys….. Mumbai…. Office @ JBNagaar.. Loved it for the same…. stones throw away from home…But decided to leave when the HR became to carelss and on top of that Technology director, asked to leave if I didn’t like.

why me for all this trauma. People will have a first impression about me that I’m a kinda person whol love hopping job but every time I had genuine concernes. After my CDAC, I have seen biggest and fastest growth in career in terms od domain and package, but who the hell is realy interested in hopping. Those bastards made my life hell at Cybage else MSTR still my best work. I’m gonna join a new job son with salaray more than 5 times of what I received at Cybage 3 years back, but mamma wants me to come to Bombay for mere 1.2 lac PA. That’s acceptable.

"Significat" NO tear in knee muscle :-)

On 19th of June, I was ——- happy. I had worked till 3:30 AM morning and had come home. Got up by 11:30 and rang Santhosh. He could not confirm if ther were any new issue with reports, but the work that I had done till early morning was very satiafying and I knew no more new issues would come up unless BRD changes or functioal changes. Well, I was driving too fast being happy. On Inner Ring Road, on of the deadliest turn I was too fast to handle the turn and collided with devider. Deep bruses on right arm and severe pain in rihgt knee. “I am surrounded by people and the traffic has come to halt. I’m able to walk.” One guy lifts the bike and gets it on the foot path side. Everyone looking at me. All asking if I need to be taken to hospital. I found myself in walkable condition with some pain and bruises and opt to goto office driving that screwed up bike and get medical attention from office doctor. I guy offered following me till the office which I readily accepted. He took his route when I took a U turn for office. God bless him for his much needed care.

Upon seeing those deep bruises, the assistant doctor get scared. For first time in my life I saw a scared doctor. I cleap up the injury with a solution before anotaher soluction is applied on the injuries by her. Main doctor was pretty fine with the injuries and suggested a oinment to be applied every morning. I came to my desk. Everyone was shocked to see those injuries. I hadn’t taken the injection as suggested by Dr., as I’m damn damn scared of needle. Finally I get help from Pradip. He comes along while getting a titnus injection. It was not at all painful, luckily.

After the call, I asked my Service Line Manager (DW/BI is a service line here at Covansys) if he could arrenge me a cab for St John. Lucky me. I went to Hospital and got myself checked in Orthopedic OPD. He suggested me two X-Rays. Nothing was abnormal in those. No broken or fractured bones. But he caustioned me if the pain in rihgt leg would not ease in next 10 days, I would require some more treatment. I took that by pinch of salt. I could walk very well, till next day morning.

when I got up next day, there was tooooooooooo much of body pain. I was hit by helmet several times when it impacted on the ground. I had some pain on skull and face. Whole body was paining. I called up my Manager and told him about my inability to come to office.

These days and even now are like an agony. I never faced anything like this (being alone in a tough time). Brought up in a highly protective environment. Haven’t told my parents about this accident yet.

30 June, Saturday, Right knee still in quite some pain. I get the bike stationed at the Service Station at Jakkasandra. As the head light was broken had come off from the front casing, it had very scary look. Everyone along the way from Office to Station gave me staring looks. A guy called Charan gave me the address and procedure for filing claim. Pretty nice of him. I reached home and went to St John Hospital in same rick. Dr. Rajkumar examined me again. I asked me to tighen the kne cap keeping the leg straight. I had terrible pain while doing do. Apart from this, I had pain in calf muscle. He suggected me a chnage in medication and MRI.

MRI center was too scary. There is a giant hole in which your body will be passed and that machine makes scray noice while generating the magnetic waves.

when I came back home after MRI, I inspected my helmet. It had worn many places. Scratches were 1 mm deep at two places and not to forget n number of scratches. I’m writing this blof because of that helmet. I was in tear when I saw the codition of helmet even now while writing all these. —-… what a life man… why the —- i was too fast for taht turn. So much of pain and trouble.. I learnt my lesson when I saw my helmet. I am not sure if I would goto my planned 30 days adventure going around places in India in Nov-Dec.

I could not goto see Dr on Monday as there was work. Left early on Tue and collected the MRI report. OPD DR (Rajkumar) found a descripency in the report. For one of the muscle, MRI Dr wrote no tear as well as significant tear. Dr Rajkumar asked me to return the report and get the fresh report with correction. I did so.

Next day (4th July), I could not reach in time to OPD and so thought not to get the report as carrying those A3 size images would not be easy and I ahd to bring them in OPD next day itself.

Just confirmed that report is ready and would be available. Also I’m leaving by 6 PM office bus (it’s last stop happens to be St John Hospital). And my bike has been inspected by insurance company.

Leave if you don’t like (I did it in a week)

[Written on Jun 5th]
This mail actually surprized me. I was on VPN not checking my mails only once a while. I was shocked to read “Despite all the statements made here, I am in full appreciation of all the hard work done by my colleagues in HR.” by my Manager. Just 10 minutes ago of reading this mail I had gone to him to speak from my side and he used “s!@#Wed up” word for HR. Well, I have never ever heard any PM using such firece comments in my life.

Let us dig into this a bit. I had sent mail to Chitra asking about the Disturbance Allowance missing from Salary (1st June). I was replied there would be check and would get back to me. My manager was part of the CC. Well there was usual HR inaction (as I’m awaiting a reply from BALASUNDAR Aparna for the resumes I had reffered). Worse than even Cyabge. At least they reply with negative in 15 days time. It had been months since I have sent 3 resumes. There was no action of talk on the same by my Manager. But when I let out my anger on HR, voila, my Manager got furious. He threatened to fire me. Do that to me dude. Is asking for your rights is so much concered. Aren’t you ashamed that I had to shout for myself. He told me that people those who work under him woudl like hiim very much and that’s the best appreciation for me. Well, I really do not care what rest of think of you as manager. No manager had ever spoken about “firing you” in my whole life. And well, he is trying to scare who has already seen all these. [:)] “If you don’t like it, LEAVE” that were his words. Well, I’m not a quitter. Zindgi mein acheche achchon ko seedha kiya hai. Well, now I have become smooth for all such managerial bullcrap.

Those who know me well, know that with Ashish there is no XXXXing room for hickups, mistakes and must be at time supposed to be. Errors (w/o reasons) freak me out big time.